It's more bitter than sweet.

It's now 4 days after Sterling has graduated high school and moved out.  It's more than bittersweet.  It's sad.  He is my best friend and he's gone.
He told me 4 days before his graduation that he was moving.  It took me by surprise.  I half didn't expect him to move out.  But he did.
The house is very quiet.  Fortunately Justine and I just moved into a beautiful new house with IKEA furniture that I struggle to put together.  Fortunately, Justine can put the stuff together better than me.  The doors not shutting right or the leaky faucet or toilet have my attention right now.  It takes some of the sting out of my best friend moving away.
I love you Bubba!  I miss you too!  I wish you were 12 again.  I wish you needed me to do everything for you.  I look at the pictures of you when you were little.  I remember some.  Some I don't.  For that...I am sorry.  I wish I remembered every little thing.  You were, and still are, awesome.

I called this blog "the dark horse towers" because I wasn't sure a single dad could raise a kid.  I wasn't sure you'd be happy and graduate high school or even be normal because I worked so much and had to raise a kid.  I thought the odds were against you and me.  They were, I believe.  But we made it!  For that I am proud.  You make me proud.

I miss you.